My memory from this morning is blurry when I had an intrusive thought scenario but I’m scared what if it was made up and not intrusive. But then I think if it was made up and I wanted it then I wouldn’t have anxiety or be obsessing. I know this doesn’t make sense. None of it makes sense. I am so done with ocd. I wish I could make it all go away. I just want to cry all the time

Hey! I’m not going to give you tons of reassurance because I know that’s not good. But, just so you know, that would have to be a repressed memory for tou to have forgotten it. And less that 30 percent of Psychologists believe in repression of memories. And Yk what? Let’s say in the off chance it was real. Who cares. People do shitty things. Doesn’t make them shitty people. Bad people, real pedos DONT care. They LIKE it and the thoughts and the “memories”. You obviously do not.