It still feels like I won’t get a future with my partner bc I’m worried I’ll turn lesbian or the distance will be too hard. Plus there’s not much anxiety around the idea anymore, it just seems like the truth so that just makes me feel like complete poop. It’s so hard to be hopeful and I really do want a future with him but it feels like I won’t. It isn’t fair, I don’t want that taken from me. I don’t care about any of this stupid stuff anymore, I just want to see him in person again to make sure everything I felt for him wasn’t just in my head and that there’s still hope for us.

im in the same mindset currently too

I’m here for you if you’d like to vent

@PinkLotus it just feels like im almost recovered but like just feeling like then possible can be real sucks more than the thoughts

@nikkii Yeah that’s how I feel too, I don’t try to figure it out anymore but yet everything is still there and it’s like I’m still going to end up as someone who I don’t want to be

do you ever feel like you truly want it and it causes you barely any anxiety so it feels super true???

Yup

Dude i know exactly how you feel... there isnt a lot of anxiety around the whole thing with me also and i just don’t know what to believe anymore because all of this feels so real... everytime i see a man i just have a mini mental breakdown because i think i like them... and what’s scary is that even homeless people too

Yeah for me it targets specific people and ugh it’s just the worst