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- 6y
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My friend took a bite out of my food and I was so disgusted that I didn’t want to eat it, but I drank a bit and ended up eating it anyways and when I sobered up, I realized that I was worried about nothing. And then later that week I tried a sip of my sister’s coffee. Basically forcing myself to try people that I trust’s stuff. The only exception for the contamination anxiety is my boyfriend.
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- 6y
I saw a really dirty un flushed toilet stall and blood marks on the floor. From then it’s been a major downhill spiral. The sight of a slight smudge or dirt or male is enough to set me off to a crazy routine of a long shower and multiple hand washings. I’m trying to reduce the compulsions now. It’s much harder on days where I do see something gross as it reminded me of my major trigger. While we can agree that blood is gross for anyone, most people can see it, walk away and carry on their day. For me, this triggers multiple handwashing and the thought that it’s allover my body causing a long shower. Then anything I touched that day is considered contaminated and I will either need to wipe it or not let it touch my room which is considered free from contamination
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- 6y
I used to wash my hands ALL THE TIME. Seriously every 10-15 minutes. I used to clean my backpack every single day- and Lysol each individual PENCIL. Inside the bag. I used to have to clean everything MULTIPLE TIMES. Then mentally check to make sure I cleaned it all. One time my brother was spraying poison on the weeds and he came inside and touched me. I had to wash my clothes- take a shower - wash my hands- clean the door. All because he touched me (barely) ALL OF THESE THINGS ARE MEMORIES AND I LOOK BACK AND LAUGH. One day you WILL too. Do not give into your compulsions. It’s going to be uncomfortable. But please train yourself because little compulsions lead to bigger ones. Take it from me
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- 6y
It took a lot of time- but I slowly but surely resisted my compulsions. It was painful to resist at times but it was worth it!
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- 6y
It is very hard, Lark. Other things that I found helped me when it got tough were : exercise, eating fruits and veggies, getting sleep, drinking water, avoiding caffeine and sugar, etc. Helping your body helps your mind out (:
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I definitely do not do that but thanks for the tips. Because I find the gym contaminated I don’t exercise at all and I eat 0 fruits and veggies. I’m trying to change this.
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Lillie how did you get better from it
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That’s impressive Lillie. Congrats. I’m trying to do the same but it is very hard
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- 25w
Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone
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- 18w
Hello, i have very severe contamination ocd, and as i am writing this i feel my hands are dirty lol, but anyways i wanted to know if there’s anyone specialised in Contamination ocd? No matter what type because i really need help and i looked up things but it doesn’t help please!!
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- 18w
sorry this is super long i just wanna know if anyone else has been thru something similar bc i feel super alone 🩷 i have super bad contamination ocd. it was bad already but my house was like my safe space until a few months ago someone brought something into my house that i considered ‘contaminated’. and so then i felt like that part of the house was contaminated, then it spread to everything outside my room (since family is moving around touching stuff) and then somehow i got convinced everything in my room except my bed is contaminated and i need to wash my hands after touching it. in my mind its like the contamination just infinitely spreads to things after the tiniest bit of touch. idek what im afraid of anymore or even what the original thing was but i can’t let it go. when i have to wash off contamination i have to wash at least 4 times or until it feels right, or sometimes take rlly long showers and wipe down all my stuff. i even throw away food and clothes or just whole items sometimes because they feel so contaminated i don’t want them in my space. i can’t be super near people or have anyone touch me, and i also can’t bring anything new into my room since it had to go through the entry of my house which feels contaminated. i feel like all i do is lay in bed and then wash my hands and do compulsions so i can go eat or do other stuff around the house. also i never go out because i’m bc people outside make me feel dirty, and i hate thinking about how many people have touched stuff in stores or in public and stuff. so im just in my room worrying all day. i feel so trapped and the contamination/avoiding it is all i think about anymore i barely have time for anything else and im never present when i talk to people because im worrying about if i accidentally got contaminated. im starting erp next week and knowing that im going to have to expose myself to things is really freaking me out. does anyone else have this kind of ocd ? im exhaustedddd 🥲🥲💔
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