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- 6y
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- 6y
My friend took a bite out of my food and I was so disgusted that I didn’t want to eat it, but I drank a bit and ended up eating it anyways and when I sobered up, I realized that I was worried about nothing. And then later that week I tried a sip of my sister’s coffee. Basically forcing myself to try people that I trust’s stuff. The only exception for the contamination anxiety is my boyfriend.
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- 6y
I saw a really dirty un flushed toilet stall and blood marks on the floor. From then it’s been a major downhill spiral. The sight of a slight smudge or dirt or male is enough to set me off to a crazy routine of a long shower and multiple hand washings. I’m trying to reduce the compulsions now. It’s much harder on days where I do see something gross as it reminded me of my major trigger. While we can agree that blood is gross for anyone, most people can see it, walk away and carry on their day. For me, this triggers multiple handwashing and the thought that it’s allover my body causing a long shower. Then anything I touched that day is considered contaminated and I will either need to wipe it or not let it touch my room which is considered free from contamination
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- 6y
I used to wash my hands ALL THE TIME. Seriously every 10-15 minutes. I used to clean my backpack every single day- and Lysol each individual PENCIL. Inside the bag. I used to have to clean everything MULTIPLE TIMES. Then mentally check to make sure I cleaned it all. One time my brother was spraying poison on the weeds and he came inside and touched me. I had to wash my clothes- take a shower - wash my hands- clean the door. All because he touched me (barely) ALL OF THESE THINGS ARE MEMORIES AND I LOOK BACK AND LAUGH. One day you WILL too. Do not give into your compulsions. It’s going to be uncomfortable. But please train yourself because little compulsions lead to bigger ones. Take it from me
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- 6y
It took a lot of time- but I slowly but surely resisted my compulsions. It was painful to resist at times but it was worth it!
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- 6y
It is very hard, Lark. Other things that I found helped me when it got tough were : exercise, eating fruits and veggies, getting sleep, drinking water, avoiding caffeine and sugar, etc. Helping your body helps your mind out (:
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- 6y
I definitely do not do that but thanks for the tips. Because I find the gym contaminated I don’t exercise at all and I eat 0 fruits and veggies. I’m trying to change this.
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- 6y
Lillie how did you get better from it
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- 6y
That’s impressive Lillie. Congrats. I’m trying to do the same but it is very hard
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- 24w
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- 22w
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- Date posted
- 18w
all morning i have been feeling like there is dirt and grime on my skin. i showered last night. i washed my hair on tuesday night and i will wash it tonight. but i feel like there is dirt in my scalp and in my hair and i feel like i haven’t showered in weeks. i don’t want to feel like this anymore. every day i am anxious about how clean i am and its taking over my life. any tips?
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