Sorry if I haven't explained this well. Does anyone else with SO OCD have a trigger of women that are sexualised in films? At first I'm like freaking out cos my brain is like "she's sexy" (even though that's the point) and is like "straight girls don't find other women sexy" and have this intimidation thing where they feel like child or a boy (or less of a woman) around women like that. When I was younger I used to look up to pretty girls cos they were considered popular and cool and like you know hug them and hang out with them (like little girls do) but my brain is now like "you did that because you're bi, and you only want to be friends with pretty girls which isn't normal and makes you gay". Just wanted it to be said that I do NOT care about appearance. Only personality. I grew up that way and still am that way. I used to be aware of that I was the "ugly" friend growing up so I would try to improve myself to look like pretty girls and my ocd is playing off that and twisting it. I couldn't care less what people looked like, only whether they were a good person or not. Always has been that way for me. But like now, after my ocd started I have an issue with sexualised women and even not because of the intrusive thoughts, but just cos it makes me feel weird and anxious and idk if that's because of the trauma of ocd. Idk. Just want to see if others go through a similar thing??

Just tired af... Anyone else feels like everything is a lie all the time and there is no "before the OCD I was boy crazy" just the OCD since forever... or denial because of that aspect? Really struggeling with the physical aspect of SOOCD : looking at a women's body and really feeling something and getting turned on and looking at a man's and not feeling anything... I just dont understand! I asked my friends and many of them said they dont feel anything looking at a man's body as well (they're straight) but also looking at a women's doesnt feel like much. I just dont understand ughhhh

Hi everyone, I have been struggling with something for a while and I am starting to wonder if it is related to OCD. For as long as I can remember, I have had this habit of looking at people, whether friends, family, or strangers and even kids, through a lens that feels like it is from the perspective of someone who might find them attractive or sexualize them. I don’t want to feel attracted; it just feels like my brain automatically puts them in that perspective. I’ve done this for as long as I can remember, and I honestly thought it was just part of me being curious or creative. I have always thought this was just a quirk of my brain, but now I am starting to wonder if it is an OCD thing, especially since it feels automatic and I get anxious afterward. Has anyone else experienced this? I did not think this was part of OCD, but now I am not so sure.

I can't look at 18+ videos, comics, etc. I am straight, but SO-OCD tries to make me think I am not And the thoughts turns to feelings, and makes me scared, uncomfortable, sad, because I know this is not me. And when I try to imagine myself being with the woman on adult videos, and comics, my OCD gives gronal response not at the girl, and it fills me with fear, and anxiety, I always loved, and was attracted to women but I can't and it caused me to be depressed, and I keep ruminating I keep trying to focus on her, but it's so bad that I avoid those all the time now. I am wondering has anyone gone through something like this, or currently is, and wondering how you have done to combat this!