Do yall sometimes like to be depressed? Like when I was depressed for the first time, I hated it but now I like being sad, listening to sad songs and crying, I have hocd , now without anxiety, the anxiety is gone

Yeah. Anxiety becomes comfortable because I am assured that I haven't accepted the thoughts and all this isn't real.

I heard someone once say that depression can be a compulsion. I guess it sort of makes sense... sometimes lying in bed all day and feeling miserable feels safer than going into the world and accepting all the uncertainty.