Going through a bit of a hiccup in my recovery, thoughts (although I’ve had the same ones before) keep popping up about how the girls I’ve envied for their looks were just my crushes or me being attracted to them and I’m not realizing it. Although it’s uncomfortable, I keep trying to respond with maybe and not go looking for reassurance. I have to give credit to myself though, I have not been falling into deep rumination or trying to figure it out or think through it which is my biggest compulsion.

Mak46

281d ago

I have been feeling the same. I will say I wish I looked like a girl but then I worry that that is me actually liking them. I've also done where I start to doubt any of the feelings I have had for guys in the past. I start to worry that I was somehow faking it even though I never felt like that. Has just saying maybe been really helpful to you? Or have you done other things that really help with rumination and thinking through it?

Corie

281d ago

Really saying “maybe this is all true” and adding “I would be still be able to live a good and happy life” are ways that kind of help me stop the rumination. Also if I notice I’m going into rumination I stop immediately and act with a response prevention and put my focus on something else!