Rant/Vent?: Should I tell my partner that I am having thoughts of breaking up and anxiety talking to him? I am scared that it will feed into my compulsive thoughts. I can't do this anymore. I keep having feelings of not caring for him anymore and feeling okay with breaking up with him. But what we had before was so special. I was in love with him but then one day my brain told me I wasn't and that I find him ugly and that he deserves better. He wants to FaceTime me now and I am scared to do it.

You’re fine. I don’t care if this sounds like reassurance it just means you have low self esteem. You have ROCD because someone hurt you in the past. Yes most of us have OCD because of genetics Bht most of the time it’s dormant until something triggers it. Most likely you feel you’re not good enough for him or that you won’t love him anymore in the future so it’s eating you alive making you feel like you wanna be just friends when you know he’ll always be on your mind so it’s clear you don’t wanna leave.

How do I distinguish if it's the OCD or if it's my true feelings?

@Anonymous watch awaken into love on youtube! it helped me when i was at my peak with Rocd. i used to have the same thoughts as u, and now me and my bf aren’t together (not by my choice) And now i’m like dang i really did love him, and all those bad thoughts and confusion was just my anxiety and rocd sabotaging my relationship.

You’ll be okay❤️ go to the ERP therapy sessions