Hi there! I am so sorry that you are experiencing this. I know it’s both scary and aggravating to have unwanted images and dreams appear in your brain. I want you to know that you aren’t alone, and you should remember that these dreams and images are not in your control, therefore they cannot make you a monster. It’s not like you can choose to have these dreams! Just remind yourself that these dreams do not define you. OCD and intrusive thoughts do not define you either. It’s out of your control. If you very clearly care about not being a monster and being good, this alone shows that you are definitely not a monster. It will get better:) You can always message me about it if you need someone to talk to
Thank you so much for replying and your kind words. Nights were my only moments of peace and now it’s gone... but you’re right, I just wish I didn’t have these dreams.
@HispanicAtTheDisco It’s no problem! I’m really sorry about that. I’ve found that melatonin works really well in getting me to sleep and keeping me deeply asleep (while ridding me of most bad dreams). If you haven’t tried that, you should!