I wanna go on my Google Photos, to get some pics for room decor, but I'm afraid that I will have an inintrusive thought *^*

i swear I’m either schizophrenic or my ocd is just THIS bad. my phone has been acting weird, like my screen turns black and then it’ll turn back on to where i was (i guess it freezes?) when that happens i immediately panic. my head tells me that my phone is acting like that because im being watched and the police will show up to my house. i had a lot of screenshots on my phone from social media, it was like outfit ideas (outfits on other people, influencers) I went through and deleted all those photos, i feel like they looked bad/suspicious.

I guessed someone had a mole on their back, I basically saw the photo first then zoomed in and guessed they had a mole. (It’s a weird compulsion) Chatgpt told me that maybe I saw a shadow in the image first and that’s why I guessed? Now I want to so badly go & find the image again and see if I could’ve seen any shadows. I’m trying not too.

are they truly intrusive thoughts or am i thinking and creating automatically graphic images that i dont want to think? i think it happens because it's too easy once you're anxious abt it. i dont enjoy it. i just saw a trigger and had a graphic disturbing se&ual image in my head.