i keep getting thoughts and idk if they’re intrusive but i don’t like them but my mind keeps trying to subtly like suggest it to me and i’m getting so annoyed bc i never would’ve thought these things if it weren’t for my ocd bringing them up but it feels like it’s from me and i absolutely hate it

I have intrusive thoughts about God. But sometimes it seems like I do think them myself. I don't agree with them. But it's like I get too exhausted to fight anymore, or when my mind calms down, I don't feel right without the thoughts so I think them myself and idk why. I'm pretty sure I'm going to hell.

for me, it's like there's two folders of my thoughts, 'main thoughts' and 'sub thoughts' and it's like a background voice of my background voice, you know? like so quiet and irrelevant but it's still here and i can try to ignore it but not fully and it feels like it's just really nasty, like it's warring with me, never shuts up and just keeps nagging me with those thoughts

does anyone else constantly suffer from intrusive thoughts? it makes my head ache & i can barely think straight.