My dad gave me money for the theatre a few days ago I didn’t have thoughts then ... he’s a good dad why do I have thoughts of harming him rn wtf I hate myself he doesn’t deserve me having These thoughts whyyyyyy what is wrong with my head

Don’t worry, those thoughts are definitely not real and say nothing about your character. Your OCD is only going after who you love most and it will cling onto whatever makes you upset. Trust me, it’s not you! Just accept the thoughts as ocd and it will become a lot easier, I promise! Hope this helped!