I feel disgusting and evil. I feel bad. What if lose all control and act out these thoughts? What would my friends think of me if they knew, how disgusting I am. I just want this to go away. I don't wanna harm anyone. My mom, my brothers, my friends. They love me, but I don't understand why. My mom is spending money on me that I don't deserve. What if I am actually a Psychopath? *^* OCD give me a break