Does anyone else with TOCD feel like they sometimes hate their birth gender now? For me, I always loved being a girl growing up even though I was a tomboy. Now however, I find myself sometimes feeling genuine disgust over feminine things or anxiety at being perceived as female, which are feelings I never ever had before TOCD started. I get anxiety watching TV a lot, I'll see women and think I'd never want to be them and would rather be the males. It convinces me I must actually be trans, because when I hear people talk about TOCD they say they know they don't want to be the other gender, but sometimes it really feels like I do.