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- 3y
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Feeling the Same at the moment. Hocd since march 21.
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Glad I'm not alone
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I dealt with this for some months as well! Although this obsession seemed easier to let go of, it still did a really good job at tricking me and stressing me out š¤ you arenāt alone
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- 21w
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now theyāre just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself itās two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself itās alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if itās just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but itās confusing. On top of that Iāve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like Iād be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk Iāve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that Iām straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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- 15w
Iāve completely lost myself. I canāt focus on my studies, I canāt go to the gym. Dang it I canāt even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I donāt feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. Itās like itās forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesnāt change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life itās ocd. Iāve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and Iām back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I canāt keep living with this.
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- 12w
I donāt know if itās SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and itās like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I donāt want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I havenāt been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I donāt want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..
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