hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 4y
Mak46Mak46
- Date posted
- 4y
Yeah I have felt that when going out places recently. Like my mind wants to completely switch how I have felt for all these years. Then I just feel sad. Has this affected your self esteem/self confidence at all? I feel like it definitely has affected mine.
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 4y
In a way yesâŚ.more my physical I finally have learned to love who I am, but then my head goes âaccept that your gayâ or âyour also gayâ and then i hit myself
Mak46Mak46
- Date posted
- 4y
@hate_ocd.123 Yeah I have noticed that I don't feel as confident in how I look anymore. I will look at a girl and think she is pretty, I wish I had the confidence to wear that but then my mind tells me that you think that because you like her and it's your attraction to her
clomaiclomai
- Date posted
- 4y
@Mak46 This is exactly how I feel. Iâve been having ERP and itâs sort of a last hurdle of mine. Just accepting that people can be pretty and that that doesnât mean you are gay⌠itâs like my mind has forgotten who I am.
Mak46Mak46
- Date posted
- 4y
@clomai Yeah it feels like my mind has forgotten who I am as well. Is there anything you have done during erp that has helped you the most?
clomaiclomai
- Date posted
- 4y
@Mak46 Iâve just been throwing myself into it full steam ahead. And it got worse before it got better and then one day there was barely any anxiety it only took around 5 weeks⌠the thoughts are still distressing but I just do the ERP.
clomaiclomai
- Date posted
- 4y
@Mak46 There are good days and bad days and you know, my mum once said to me, not everything is because you have a mental illness, sometimes things are just sh*t and itâs okay to be upset about it.
Mak46Mak46
- Date posted
- 4y
@clomai Okay, thanks! I think I will try to do something similar. That's good advice
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