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I can relate, I just keep repeating āIām straightā in my head now
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So you're having hocd since when
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@raj123 Canāt remember but probably November , last year. Hbu?
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@KƤrsiƤ Its just been like 3 months or so. I have no anxiety now I guess. But I think this isnt hocd anymore. I'm cryingš
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@raj123 Iāve read somewhere that we do get used to this, and it also doesnāt mean that weāre accepting it. I want to do therapy but Iām too scared
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yess mee!! and less rumination and anxiety :( i don't think this is hocd anymore
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You're having hocd since how long?
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@raj123 about 6 months
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@Nour04 Oh okay, I'm relieved a bit that I'm not alone. Did you have no anxiety 1-2 months ago? Cuz its 3 months of me having hocd and now I dont have anxiety
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@raj123 YESS!!!!
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If you are crying and posting for reassurance it sounds like you still have anxiety. What do you mean by no more anxiety? The specific manifestations and compulsions of ocd change on us (as ocdās tricky way to get us to do compulsions). There is also a thing called āback door spikeā that you may be experiencing. Either way, keep treating the ocd with therapy and erp!
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Bro I'm confused. Idk how to tell if its anxiety or not. Can you help me out? The feeling when you get when you're very scared, like shivering legs, I have that feeling. And this is not everyday. I'll have this for a week or two, then I would go away. After some days/ weeks, it would come back. Please help meš
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@raj123 It sounds like anxiety. Also I think ocd anxiety can turn into depression symptoms like crying all the time. But what is important is to not finding a label for our feeling but getting ocd treatment. Have you done therapy?
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