I had an intrusive thought that started of with “I want to….” but I DO NOT WANT the content that is happening. Is this normal? I cant stop thinking about it and it’s making me so so miserable. I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

it is 100% percent normal

It is completely normal, from my experience.

This is totally normal. I’ve had the same, followed by such scary thoughts 😩😩 but using erp and accepting the thought and saying “yeah maybe” has made a difference for me. I really don’t get bothered by a lot of my thoughts anymore

but wont the "yeah maybe" end up confusing you? since intrusive thoughts usually go for what you dont want

I get what you’re saying, and they might in the moment, but that’ll be ocd talking because it still wants to be certain that it’s not true. I found that after a while when it’s not an obsession anymore, I’m actually less confused because the ocd is weaker and I can think about it clearly. The erp therapy targets the ocd, not your actual feelings :)