always having to be morally correct all the time and analyzing everything i think (not even my actions but my thoughts as well) to make sure it fits within my rigid moral code is becoming debilitating and idek if this is ocd or not

Yeah, ever since I was a kid I've always hated lying, but my mon forces me to so she can get more money and valuables from my dad (separated parents). My sister doesn't care but I've always felt disgusted at myself for almost a decade. You're right, it feels so debilitating, especially in morally grey areas.

firstly i’m so sorry about ur situation, and yeah i know people who’ve done far worse things than i have and don’t even feel a little bit of regret but i feel regret over practically everything whether it’s something that i should regret or things i shouldn’t regret. it all becomes jumbled up especially when i mix my actions with my thoughts yk

I've felt this too...