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Thanks buddyš. And I dont feel like being myself for a long time now. I don't know what's real or fake anymore. I question everything, including my existence š
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@BlueMountain Bro the thing that makes me less stressed is alcoholš. Drinking alcohol makes me feel like myself again, but for a short timeš. You helped me alot mahn. Cant thank you enoughš
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