- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
š„ŗ I can relate. Itās sad because I feel like this might be a normal thought most people have in relationships but they can easily shrug it off. But for me, or for us, itās like we think this thought and experience panic and like omg omg Iām having this thought for a reason this is the end of the world.
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- Date posted
- 25w
Lately, Iāve been struggling with feelings that I might be sabotaging myself in my relationship. By sabotage, I mean that I find it hard to stop engaging in compulsions, like seeking reassurance or overanalyzing my thoughts. I also sometimes behave badly with my boyfriend, and the intrusive thoughts I have can completely change my mood. I love my boyfriendāheās such a good, beautiful, and wonderful personābut Iām afraid these thoughts are going to ruin things. I truly want to love him, but Iām scared. I know the thoughts are anxiety-driven, but they still make me question if Iām forcing myself to stay with him. Today, for example, I felt okay earlier, but when he called me on video, I suddenly felt like I didnāt feel anything, and I started thinking I donāt like how he looks. These thoughts hit me like a wave, and I panicked. Usually, I find him very attractive, but when these thoughts come, I feel sad and disconnected. Whatās confusing is that I also have many momentsālike today and in the past few daysāwhere Iāve felt really good and Iāve felt love for him. I feel awful writing this because my boyfriend doesnāt deserve this, and I feel like Iām posting out of habit. It makes me scared that I donāt want to accept the truth, even though I know I care about him. I hate feeling this way because it feels like Iām betraying him by having these thoughts and posting them. Has anyone else dealt with these feelings of sabotaging their relationship or feeling like theyāre forcing themselves to stay? How do you cope when the thoughts feel like theyāre true, and how do you work through the fear of letting go of anxiety
- Date posted
- 24w
He loves me and complimenta me and saya beautiful things and does many things for me, he says he loves me and he is there for me, but me.. i cant even say i love you without doubting, i am doubting my feelings my atractuon for him, everything, i feel so bad, i dont want to be like this, i hate myself . He is precious and genuine and im scared im not, i have moments when i am happy ⦠but rn i am sad. I saw him today. i dont know what i felt but as im writing this i feel guilt amd fear. Scared that i may be pretending. I want to be happy, what if im not happy with him.. it cant be.
- Date posted
- 9w
Recently my ocd keeps asking me if I love my boyfriend enough and that if I donāt love him enough I should breakup with him. Itās really bothering me and idk what to do about it. Sitting in the uncertainty is too much and I fear sitting with it too long Iām just gonna crack and give in to a compulsion.
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