I’ve kind of been feeling in a rut the past couple of days. I feel like I have no motivation, nothing to look forward to. Kind of scared it could be a little depression because I’ve had it before but also trying to remind myself this can happen to anyone and not to overthink it.

I usually would say I’ve never been depressed , but recently in my life since my anxiety/ocd has been so bad and having relationship problems I’m feeling kinda sad / stressed. I keep getting scared of being depressed I keep having intrusive thoughts of “ you’d would be better off if you weren’t living” “ I don’t wanna live if it’s like this” and it’s just scaring me 😞

I feel like I’ve lost who I am , even since my depression and ocd started. I don’t even know what I like anymore:(( I doubt everything I think and it’s so draining because I just want to feel like my old self again😭 I feel like I have no motivation to get better which is bothering me so much because I want too but something is holding me back from doing what I need to do :/ with all my thoughts and doubts , I feel like I can’t trust myself . I don’t know if I’m the only one that feels this much pain

Has anyone else gone months (like 1-3) feeling fine like no spiraling, just some overthinking and anxiety here and there. And not due to therapy or erp, just on their own.