Sometimes I feel like I could really tell a specialized therapist my thoughts and concerns and the content of my thoughts but then I’m like no no you can’t say that bc what if there are some things that aren’t OCD or if I can’t get help bc it’s not ocd and there gonna send me somewhere else or just idk :( what if I can’t be helped? What if they don’t understand and judge me?

What happens if I don’t speak to an OCD specialist about my thoughts and instead I go to a normal one will I get reported???

Therapist put it on the table that I should see a psychiatrist that she recommends. I felt relief because maybe the psychiatrist can tell me what's wrong and the plan going forward but im scared because what if my symptoms vanish or i miraculously get better (i doubt it) then what if i've been making a mountain of a mole hill. Or what if i dont know how to express myself. im obviously not scared of getting better, but i just don't want to seem like im making people scramble to treat me and then it turns out theres nothing wrong. like what if i don't have OCD and im just making all this stuff up in my head. what if i just want something to stress about

My ocd is very cyclic so its themes change monthly, and they can feel so so inappropriate and scary to discuss. I’d love to start therapy and feel ready but my only concern is because my intrusive thoughts come in waves, I can have periods where I feel amazing and don’t experience what I’m experiencing now so what if that’s the case when I start? Any advice would be appreciated. It makes me feel like I’m a fake or that It isn’t bad enough to receive help.