It feels like I am bi in denial with male preferance. But I remember this sudden attraction after HOCD hit me.

It’s only ocd’s little game to pick at every single thought you have and make you think it’s real. Trust me, you’re definitely fine and none of this is real. It feels real, but that’s only because ocd is a bully and trying to convince you that everything you fear is true. All you have to do is tell it,”ok, sure, whatever”, take a deap breath, and brush it away. It’s hard, but it will get easier!

I try :(