It feels like I am bi in denial with male preferance. But I remember this sudden attraction after HOCD hit me.

Like I feel geroinals ALL DAY and it’s stuck… I think I’m bi. But this still drives me nuts.

it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before

i’m scared i’m bi and in denial and trying to convince myself im straight.