i would do anything to get my basic intrusive thoughts back anything is better than this hell thats real event ocd i hate it so much bc idk what’s wrong or right anymore i just want to be a good person

Understand so much of what you're saying. I did one bad thing that was out of good intention and now OCD gives me all sorts of pains to make me question what is right or wrong. Some times I see myself being someone or going somewhere and feel like it's gonna happen, but it never does. But then when I come to that conclusion, the OCD again makes me doubt by telling me "Oh, just right now" or "This time it's different".