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i do:/
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It is the worst thing, really. :( because you can’t change it. I don’t know how to “forgive myself”, especially with anxiety. That seems like a hard thing for those of us with anxiety.
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Me today - I'm lost in the thought pattern.
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Me too. It’s even things that happened many, many years ago as a kid. I can’t just “get over it” like people tell me to do. Like thanks, that helped me so much :(
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@MRR7221 Yeah, today I'm super worried that I screwed up my new job. Because it probably appears worse than it was. I was accused or mildly accused of stealing which I wasn't trying to. I'm so never that person. I'm worried that I sought too much reassurance and now I appear to be a bad person that can't be trusted. Like what do I do?
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@ucsancy I feel horrible and incredibly anxious.
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@ucsancy Ugh I’m so sorry you feel like this. Anxiety seriously just makes everything worse. Like why must we have to overthink the smallest things? Then those small things become big things and then all of a sudden you’re obsessing over that small thought for weeks into months… :(
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@MRR7221 Exactly! It's freaking me out. I'm so worried they'll fire me because of that. I'm seriously anxious.
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@ucsancy I hate that anxiety can do soo much damage to us. You won’t get fired from that! Just explain the story to them, they will be forgiving! I had a similar thing that I was scared about with work. :( but it was just all in my head :(
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It is just getting so tiring. :(
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Im worried I'm a super bad person 😔
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Because of stuff you did in the past? Me too. I feel like my husband can be with someone soo much better because of stuff I did so long ago as a kid… :( I know you aren’t a bad person!
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I get it. I'm in a new relationship after seven years single. I'm incredibly worried that I've screwed up and like why would somebody so great like him want somebody who's worried about being a bad person? I just wish like God or something could appear and let me know if I'm bad or not, so I can either let go of it or just accept if I am bad.
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I ask God so many times to just tell me the truth of things to me soo many times… like I do the “God please tell me, did I do that??” And I’ll get a “no you didn’t” I truly believe it was him telling me that but then I overthink and say “no that was just my head saying what you want to say” and the cycle just continues…
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All of mg experience with OCD has been extremely tiring. It drains me of all of my energy.
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I will literally sit blankly just all caught up in my thoughts and then when someone mentions how I’ve been or like I mention my anxiety to them, I just break down. I cry and continually cry. Sometimes I feel like I have no support either :(
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@MRR7221 I feel the same way. I keep feeling like I'm bothering the people around me with the things I do. The most aggravating thing is that I annoy myself. I don't WANT to do these things. I just can't help it. I recognize the things I do are unnecessary but I just can't snap out of it. I don't reallt expect the people around me to fully understand since they aren't experiencing it. I just want people to understand that this isn't really me. And just to have patience with me until I figure this out. My ocd just randomly got really bad like a month. It was almost like overnight... just so sudden. There's things I was able to do a month ago, that I am terrified to do now. Or I just avoid doing because it will take too long or require too much energy.
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@TLee182 YES! Me too!! I was perfectly fine and then all of a sudden I had a random thought that I sexually assaulted a toddler at my old daycare 12 yrs ago when I have no memory of doing it. It literally was like an instant. No warning or anything. The energy thing is such an issue. I worked out all the time but now it just I have no motivation from my anxiety. I hope you can get to feeling better ❤️
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Does anyone feel like they’re fighting a war inside of them? I’ve slowly opened up to people about my past and things that happened ( I never thought I would ) but at times, I value truth and honesty and wanting to be a good person and this is something I just want to let go of because I’ve suffered with the guilt and shame and regret but my mind keeps on dwelling on it and bringing it back. Like I’m a fraud. This implies to all my mistakes that I’ve learned from. I normally tell my mom things but I don’t want to tell her these things. I love her and don’t want to bring shame upon my family or for this to be brought up over and over again. I did stupid things without logically thinking and I have the best mom ever and she trusted me with things when I was younger. I made mistakes with that trust and it makes me upset. I now feel like I’m ideally the “ideal” kid for my family and I wish to stay like that no matter my age. I’ve been trying to mange with my childhood mistakes. The shame and guilt. I’m trying to be a bit more compassionate but there’s always the thought that scares me, what if I was really evil? I used to hate looking at pictures of myself when I was younger but now when I do, I finally realize what they meant by “you aren’t your worst mistake” because I’ve done good and I’ve also screwed up. But I feel like I’m fighting a war with myself because I value justice and truth and so but I don’t even wanna talk about this or bring it up and my mind keeps targeting it and it’s exhausting.
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I genuinely feel like the worlds most horrible person deeply for my past actions in childhood and general mistakes I’ve made. I feel like I shouldn’t be here or there’s no hope for me despite doing right ( trying to do right ) I’ve wanted to open up to my mom about things from my past but when I was talking to her about a situation that happened just to share, she was like “Thank God you’ve never done anything like that” But really my past mistakes are worst. It’s like I feel like I should disappear. I don’t know how to deal with the guilt and I feel horrible. I’ve made good and bad decisions but despite this being a long time ago ( which doesn’t erase my stupid actions ) I still keep bringing back into the present and I’m filled with guilt I genuinely think it would be better if I wasn’t here. I wake up think about my past things and I’m filled with guilt and shame that maybe I am a bad person and voices don’t stop, they keep telling me a lot of things that I start to believe. It makes me upset that I did something like that in my past and I try to be understanding but I can imagine the reactions of people and being condemned so much. I literally do this to myself every single day and it’s exhausting I don’t know how you guys can treat me with so much compassion and understanding. It really doesn’t feel real or like I deserve it. Like even on nocd, it makes me feel worst because I come across comments that say “as long as it’s not —-“ or something and I compare it to my past and I feel like a horrible unacceptable person.
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I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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