- Username
- MRR7221
- Date posted
- 955d ago
- "Pure" OCD
i do:/
It is the worst thing, really. :( because you can’t change it. I don’t know how to “forgive myself”, especially with anxiety. That seems like a hard thing for those of us with anxiety.
Me today - I'm lost in the thought pattern.
Me too. It’s even things that happened many, many years ago as a kid. I can’t just “get over it” like people tell me to do. Like thanks, that helped me so much :(
@MRR7221 Yeah, today I'm super worried that I screwed up my new job. Because it probably appears worse than it was. I was accused or mildly accused of stealing which I wasn't trying to. I'm so never that person. I'm worried that I sought too much reassurance and now I appear to be a bad person that can't be trusted. Like what do I do?
@ucsancy I feel horrible and incredibly anxious.
@ucsancy Ugh I’m so sorry you feel like this. Anxiety seriously just makes everything worse. Like why must we have to overthink the smallest things? Then those small things become big things and then all of a sudden you’re obsessing over that small thought for weeks into months… :(
@MRR7221 Exactly! It's freaking me out. I'm so worried they'll fire me because of that. I'm seriously anxious.
@ucsancy I hate that anxiety can do soo much damage to us. You won’t get fired from that! Just explain the story to them, they will be forgiving! I had a similar thing that I was scared about with work. :( but it was just all in my head :(
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It is just getting so tiring. :(
All of mg experience with OCD has been extremely tiring. It drains me of all of my energy.
I will literally sit blankly just all caught up in my thoughts and then when someone mentions how I’ve been or like I mention my anxiety to them, I just break down. I cry and continually cry. Sometimes I feel like I have no support either :(
@MRR7221 I feel the same way. I keep feeling like I'm bothering the people around me with the things I do. The most aggravating thing is that I annoy myself. I don't WANT to do these things. I just can't help it. I recognize the things I do are unnecessary but I just can't snap out of it. I don't reallt expect the people around me to fully understand since they aren't experiencing it. I just want people to understand that this isn't really me. And just to have patience with me until I figure this out. My ocd just randomly got really bad like a month. It was almost like overnight... just so sudden. There's things I was able to do a month ago, that I am terrified to do now. Or I just avoid doing because it will take too long or require too much energy.
@TLee182 YES! Me too!! I was perfectly fine and then all of a sudden I had a random thought that I sexually assaulted a toddler at my old daycare 12 yrs ago when I have no memory of doing it. It literally was like an instant. No warning or anything. The energy thing is such an issue. I worked out all the time but now it just I have no motivation from my anxiety. I hope you can get to feeling better ❤️
Im worried I'm a super bad person 😔
Because of stuff you did in the past? Me too. I feel like my husband can be with someone soo much better because of stuff I did so long ago as a kid… :( I know you aren’t a bad person!
I get it. I'm in a new relationship after seven years single. I'm incredibly worried that I've screwed up and like why would somebody so great like him want somebody who's worried about being a bad person? I just wish like God or something could appear and let me know if I'm bad or not, so I can either let go of it or just accept if I am bad.
I ask God so many times to just tell me the truth of things to me soo many times… like I do the “God please tell me, did I do that??” And I’ll get a “no you didn’t” I truly believe it was him telling me that but then I overthink and say “no that was just my head saying what you want to say” and the cycle just continues…