Can ocd feel really real sometimes? Like actually make you think that you’re a ped0

Absolutely. That’s what OCD is! The doubting disease.

I know everytime I take a picture I feel ugly I try to pass through it

I have spent my entire adult life living with pocd and not knowing what it was until a few years ago and I genuinely thought my thoughts were what I was and that I wanted to do the things I think about - turns out it is an illness and I am not my thoughts and I am not my OCD and today it is easier. It also helps that my wife is someone who I can share absolutely honestly with and all I’m met with is love and no judgement, it helps remove the power that the OCD has over my mind. When it first stated I thought I was sharing in confidence but it was used as a weapon against me every time I fell out with my ex, it broke me and took away any self esteem I had - only share with people who you absolutely trust. This APP is one of those places.