I have obsessive thoughts. I broke up with this guy about a year ago because we weren't growing...there was something missing. I wanted to be with him but it had been 3 yrs off and on and i had nothing to show for it. He would go back home all the time and never took me...thay bothered me. I ended it. 8 months later i see he is having a baby shower SURPRISE!!! The girl is pretty and petite. She is wearing red bottoms (i dont have that). He posted the pix to instagram. He never posted me. I have become OBSESSED with them. I want to know why not me? What did i not have? Am i ugly? Is she cuter than me? How does she move? What kinda car does she drive? Was my car too basic? He says he wants to be with me...but it seems to be secretly. I'm like, will you tell your family we back together? Will you tell her you're going to coparent? Its driving me insane!!!