Hello everyone, I've always been coping with my ocd with avoidance, to the point where I avoid expressing emotions about it when I'm alone. I actually do this when I deeply care about something, I don't show emotions because if I do I'd make it valid and I always chose to escape. But today I actually cried for the first time about my ocd, Even got it on camera! I was having so much anxiety that I could've just dumped as always but I felt the pain and acknowledged it.