Today I read something that I would usually be avoiding and would make me anxious, and it didn’t make me anxious today. At first I thought maybe it was because I like it now and I want it. But I think it’s actually the ERP starting to make a difference and take away the anxiety from the thoughts. I’m a little scared I like the thoughts even though there is no reason I should think I like the thoughts.

Sexual Orientation OCD

And now my anxiety is spiking because I’m scared I like this and I want it to happen. And my brain was like “well you actually want this to happen” sometimes I don’t hate that the anxiety is there because then it reminds me this isn’t true 

Yeah this is quite common when you start erp