This is going to sound weird but one thing I don’t like about this theme is that guys that I usually just find attractive turn into full blown crushes because I obsess if I’d like to do things with them or if I find them attractive enough then become elated when it’s a positive response but then feel horribly guilty because I already have a partner. (10 months long distance) It’s not that I have any desire for other guys it’s just that I’m so scared of losing any attraction to guys that when I do have it I feel like running at any guy to prove it’s still there. But when guys flirt with me I don’t really care at all, today a guy squeezed my arm and it was weird but before I would’ve been flattered. I hope I still feel excited when I can finally hug my partner again. I don’t want these other guys, just him.