Ihateocd83
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Jbm421Jbm421
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Still here buddy???
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Struggling mate. Feels as tho I'm scared of my sexuality and in my head I'm like I want to be with a man but it just upsets me 😞
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Ihateocd83 Same. Though I can say that I'm better off and more capable of handling things than I was last August, shit still gets bad and I still get worried.
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Ihateocd83 Have you been able to go to a gym or at least get some exercise?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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No not yet mate. I'm just tired at the moment and lack motivation
Jbm421Jbm421
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Have a strong energy drink. Believe me you'll get motivated.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I have thoughts when I work out and it puts me off. Like tries telling me I'm working out to look good for men etc.. 😔
Jbm421Jbm421
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And if it does that say "ok". I've gotten thoughts while working our. It's terrible but you get through it. Plus, the happy drugs that the brain gives you for working out (endorphins) help alot.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 Mate I really think Im kidding myself here why would I be saying these things. My ex thinks I'm in denial because she saw what I had been writing on here 😔
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Ihateocd83 Dwelling on it will make it worse...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I just want to be happy mate 😪
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I don't know what to do. Why did this have to happen I didn't even question my sexuality growing up
Jbm421Jbm421
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It's because you have OCD. You did nothing wrong. What's one thing that you need to do is be kind to yourself. We are very hard on ourselves and as a result we feel terrible (that includes judging ourselves for involuntary thoughts or thought processes). Give yourself permission to not care and just relax for a change. Give the world the finger just do a few things that make you feel good even if it's for a day, half a day or even an hour...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I don't believe I have ocd tho mate..... you hear these stories and I'm like that must be me 😔
Jbm421Jbm421
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Yet everything you do and the doubt you feel including listening to those stories (STOP DOING THAT!!! You are not them) are all symptoms of SO-OCD. Not reassure you. Honestly bro. Never come on here and occupy yourself and accept your thoughts. You don't have to agree and it doesnt mean its true but you gotta accept...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 Sorry for going on mate. It's nice to be single. I don't think my relationship was helping matters
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Ihateocd83 No need to be sorry bro. You been through hell. We both have. But at the end of the day thoughts are not facts. Like I said use ur time for self care...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 I've started exercising on my power tower again 👍. Just trying to do a bit everyday now
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 Ah...no luke Evans came on the screen and I said in my head ... so hot 😔
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Ihateocd83 So you know what you say to ur head? "Ah, so what? Luke Evans is a beautiful man." It doesn't mean anything. So try not to assign meaning to the thoughts...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 Yeah your right. Thanks mate
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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You know the thoughts I have had mate they not the same as everyone else's on here. Thing is I would be happy if this just fucked off so so... 🤷
Jbm421Jbm421
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Wouldn't we all???
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 Yeah I know kind of stating the obvious 🙁
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Hey mate how are you doing ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Not terrible. I'm still getting intrusive thoughts that kill me and I still try too hard with the loss of attraction thing. But I'm able to be ok and not fear a lot of the time.
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Jbm421 Of course, even with all the hard work I've done, sometimes it feels like this bullshit has done irreparable damage to me.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 You alright mate .... would you say going to the gym helps ?....
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Ihateocd83 I'm OK. Still get triggered here or there but I do pretty good otherwise. Loss of attraction/desire/libido is a bitch though... He'll yeah the gym helps. It builds your confidence not only to eventually beat this bullshit but you feel better overall...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Jbm421 You OK mate ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I'm the same mate it just doesn't feel the same when I look at women it fucking kills me. It really feels like it's never going to be the same 😔
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