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I think thatās good ur exposing yo ur self to it. Little by little I think itāll have less meaning and you can just look at it like oh I remember that day!! As a better memory
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thatās how i felt for a while but now that weāre broken up i keep looking at them and iām like :-(( i shouldāve enjoyed that moment
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@Anonymous š¤ Oh Iām sorry I didnāt know it was an ex⦠:/ what was the reason for breaking up? If you donāt mind me asking
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@Anonymous he moved away to another state, and said he didnāt c a future w me :(
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@Anonymous he also said my anxiety & stuff took a toll on the relationship ):
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@Anonymous š¤ Iām so sorry that sounds like it is very hard for even both of you. I hope the best on your journey to recover from it. And take some tips onto the next relationship, you never know how things will work out for you! Right now focus on YOU and your ocd, you deserve to feel at peace and happy.
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Lately, Iāve been feeling so disconnected from my boyfriend, and I donāt understand why. When I look at him, it feels like Iām looking at a stranger, and my mind keeps telling me that I donāt like him, that I never really loved him, or that I was just attached and comfortable. It feels real, and that terrifies me. I know logically that ROCD makes me overanalyze every little feeling, but it doesnāt make this any easier. I keep waiting to feel somethingālove, excitement, even reliefābut instead, I just feel numb and distant. When we talk, I feel weird. When he kisses me, I donāt feel much. I keep thinking, āIf I really loved him, wouldnāt I feel something?ā And the fact that I donāt just fuels my anxiety even more. It scares me that I canāt remember how I felt before ROCD took over. I look at old pictures, and my brain tells me, āThat wasnāt real, you were just excited to have a relationship.ā And because I canāt access those feelings right now, it makes me doubt everything even more. I also feel guilty because my boyfriend is so loving and patient, but I feel like Iām hurting him. He tells me he doesnāt feel loved by me anymore, and I hate that I canāt just snap out of this and be the way I was before. Itās exhausting. I donāt know whatās real anymore. I keep checking how I feel every second, and it just makes me feel worse. I know thatās a compulsion, but itās so hard to stop. I keep searching for certainty, but no answer satisfies me. Even when I try to accept the uncertainty, my mind screams, āBut what if you donāt love him? What if youāre just lying to yourself?ā I want to be present with him. I want to feel love naturally again. But I donāt know how to get there, and itās terrifying.ā
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Good morning. Anyone struggle with ROCD? When I think about what I have done in the past, I feel immense guilty (I feel the tightness in my chest) and have the urge to tell my partner about it, even if my partner says she doesnāt need to know if it is going to hurt her and that I need to talk to my therapist about it first. Any suggestions on how to manage the urge/urgency? Thanks!
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Right now I feel like Iāve realized something awful. Like maybe⦠I never truly loved my boyfriend. Maybe in the beginning I was just excited to be in a relationship. Maybe I confused that excitement with real love. And when the intrusive thoughts started, maybe it wasnāt ROCD ā maybe it was the truth hitting me. I write this and it feels real. Thatās the scariest part. It feels calm and clear and like maybe Iāve just been lying to myself all along, holding on because I āshould,ā not because I truly want to. I canāt remember how it felt to love him ā and that makes it worse. I feel so disconnected, so numb, like nothing makes sense anymore. Every time I try to feel something for him, it feels like Iām faking it. Like Iām playing a role, not being myself. But the thing is⦠Iām not at peace. If this was really the truth, why does it hurt so much? Why does this ārealizationā come with panic, guilt, emptiness, and so much fear? I donāt want to hurt him. I donāt want to lose him. But I also donāt want to keep living like this ā doubting myself, my feelings, and my past. I feel like Iām stuck in a cycle I canāt break, and Iām scared Iāll always feel this way. Has anyone ever felt like this before?
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