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I think thatās good ur exposing yo ur self to it. Little by little I think itāll have less meaning and you can just look at it like oh I remember that day!! As a better memory
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thatās how i felt for a while but now that weāre broken up i keep looking at them and iām like :-(( i shouldāve enjoyed that moment
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@Anonymous š¤ Oh Iām sorry I didnāt know it was an ex⦠:/ what was the reason for breaking up? If you donāt mind me asking
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@Anonymous he moved away to another state, and said he didnāt c a future w me :(
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@Anonymous he also said my anxiety & stuff took a toll on the relationship ):
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@Anonymous š¤ Iām so sorry that sounds like it is very hard for even both of you. I hope the best on your journey to recover from it. And take some tips onto the next relationship, you never know how things will work out for you! Right now focus on YOU and your ocd, you deserve to feel at peace and happy.
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So another obsession just popped up and itās how during school I had a class with this one girl and I would always notice her. Like whenever I looked around my eyes would always go to her. And right now Iām just scared and feel like a terrible boyfriend bc even when something funny happened I would look around but my eyes would find my way to her. Now I feel like I just wanted her to notice me and it feels weird
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