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Dude we have around the same obsession. I was obsessing over whether or not I was attracted to Lila and whether the character looked 16 or not . You’re obsessing Nagu over forgetting their age . It’s all honest mistakes ocd likes to use against you.
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exactly like remembering their age makes me want to puke i have like zero attraction to any of them but ocd has a habit of ignoring how i acc feel for how it thinks i feel yk?
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@Xxara Yeah it sucks . I found just not engaging with it helps . Not doing compulsions . Much easier said than done
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In the same boat as you. Constantly thinking about shit like this and it won't go away. This is stuff that started when I was about 14
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yeah! it always just goes in a circle like my brain will either pick at things i did as a child like 11-13 on the internet or things i even did recently but disregard the fact that i find all of that nasty now like rlly rlly nasty now bc, ‘it doesn’t matter how you feel now, you still did smth,’ which is a mantra my ocd repeats to me a lot but i try to get over it
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@Xxara Yeah I totally feel you on that but on the other hand things do change such as our knowledge and motives on things. I wish I could just tell us to stop beating ourselves up over things we did when we were only kids basically but that's just what ocd wants. Reassurance.
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i’m so irritated it’s like everyday my mind keeps bringing me proof that i’m this awful person but i feel so nasty about this stuff like i genuinely have no desire to see anyone younger than me fictionally or irl doing anything nsfw like i find that nasty. so i don’t know why i went searching for those fics again like i must’ve forgotten their ages in the show
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@Xxara actually the most nsfw thing i remember from when i was younger was making out and ik that i didn’t read anything like that now idk idk idk it’s still weird i don’t like it at all and i think i just forgot their ages but i’m still so stressed
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Is this pocd? OCD?? Please no judgement!! This has been on going for years and I want the thoughts to stop and enjoy anime again :( not the other way around I used to love pride from an anime fmab (full metal alchemist brotherhood) when I was 14-15. And I feel so guilty because he took the form of a kid cause he’s a villain who can disguise himself and possess. I never liked the kid but more personality. I don’t think I NEVER EVER had romantic attraction to the body. I feel so gross talking about this as I’m older now and know what this is. The thing is Pride the homunculus character is ancient years old but his disguise is 10 years old and they have the same height but Pride is literally just a shadow with eyes and mouths in in the general lore of the anime. I do not like him now. As I got older I stopped liking him. Not in a sxual way even at all but just in general but my brain is making me think I like him or I used to in just a sxual way or ftish type of way but I DO NOT!! Idc I just feel disgusting. And I don’t want to have him as a favorite character anymore. How can I explain this to a therapist?! Any advice? No judgement please.
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Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
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So one day a couple months ago I saw some posts on threads pop up on instagram and they said I’m 17 and horny and 18 and horny or I think I even remember see a 16 year old one. I’m 20 and I remembered that when those popped up I clicked on them and I don’t know if I did it out of true attraction or out of the urge to make my anxiety go away. I feel like often times if I see something that says any number under 18 even if it has nothing to do with age it could be talking about season 17 of a tv show my mind immediately goes what?? 17??? And then I click on it to make my anxiety go away. So when I remembered all of this I downloaded the threads app because I wanted to see if I could get reassurance and see if I could rekindle how I felt in these moments. When I opened the app all I saw was posts like that but everyone claimed to be 18. The only problem is none of the girls looked 18 they looked like 14-16 so I started to panic I and worry that because I clicked on the threads in the past it popped up more and I was a pedophile for that. All of the accounts all pretty much had only fans links so at that point I was like well they have to be 18 then but now I’m worried that maybe it’s a scammer and they are using underage pictures of girls and putting them on onlyfans. Which I know is out of my control but I just feel like a Pedo and like I did something wrong. Does anyone have any advice? Or have any similar situations/ similarities with this?
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