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Dude we have around the same obsession. I was obsessing over whether or not I was attracted to Lila and whether the character looked 16 or not . You’re obsessing Nagu over forgetting their age . It’s all honest mistakes ocd likes to use against you.
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exactly like remembering their age makes me want to puke i have like zero attraction to any of them but ocd has a habit of ignoring how i acc feel for how it thinks i feel yk?
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@Xxara Yeah it sucks . I found just not engaging with it helps . Not doing compulsions . Much easier said than done
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In the same boat as you. Constantly thinking about shit like this and it won't go away. This is stuff that started when I was about 14
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yeah! it always just goes in a circle like my brain will either pick at things i did as a child like 11-13 on the internet or things i even did recently but disregard the fact that i find all of that nasty now like rlly rlly nasty now bc, ‘it doesn’t matter how you feel now, you still did smth,’ which is a mantra my ocd repeats to me a lot but i try to get over it
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@Xxara Yeah I totally feel you on that but on the other hand things do change such as our knowledge and motives on things. I wish I could just tell us to stop beating ourselves up over things we did when we were only kids basically but that's just what ocd wants. Reassurance.
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i’m so irritated it’s like everyday my mind keeps bringing me proof that i’m this awful person but i feel so nasty about this stuff like i genuinely have no desire to see anyone younger than me fictionally or irl doing anything nsfw like i find that nasty. so i don’t know why i went searching for those fics again like i must’ve forgotten their ages in the show
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@Xxara actually the most nsfw thing i remember from when i was younger was making out and ik that i didn’t read anything like that now idk idk idk it’s still weird i don’t like it at all and i think i just forgot their ages but i’m still so stressed
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So one day a couple months ago I saw some posts on threads pop up on instagram and they said I’m 17 and horny and 18 and horny or I think I even remember see a 16 year old one. I’m 20 and I remembered that when those popped up I clicked on them and I don’t know if I did it out of true attraction or out of the urge to make my anxiety go away. I feel like often times if I see something that says any number under 18 even if it has nothing to do with age it could be talking about season 17 of a tv show my mind immediately goes what?? 17??? And then I click on it to make my anxiety go away. So when I remembered all of this I downloaded the threads app because I wanted to see if I could get reassurance and see if I could rekindle how I felt in these moments. When I opened the app all I saw was posts like that but everyone claimed to be 18. The only problem is none of the girls looked 18 they looked like 14-16 so I started to panic I and worry that because I clicked on the threads in the past it popped up more and I was a pedophile for that. All of the accounts all pretty much had only fans links so at that point I was like well they have to be 18 then but now I’m worried that maybe it’s a scammer and they are using underage pictures of girls and putting them on onlyfans. Which I know is out of my control but I just feel like a Pedo and like I did something wrong. Does anyone have any advice? Or have any similar situations/ similarities with this?
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when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do
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18+ TW! Involves sexual content I have learning disabilities which means im always going to be 3-5 years mentally behind from my actual age… when I was 14 I remember finding people saying they work with kids “attractive” and I remember mastu*** over a kid around 5+ but when I was 14 I was either mentally age 11 or 9. So I didn’t know it was wrong, and as soon as I realised I stopped. People say I was young and it’s okay but I remember finding people saying they even walked past a nursery “attractive” but I don’t know if this is even the right word. Maybe cute? Because I find different emotions hard to tell the difference between, so maybe it’s cute rather than attractive. I never ever had intentions to do anything to younger individuals, it was just me finding people saying they worked with them etc attractive… which my ocd now plays on, because my friend mentioned they were working with kids but idk if it was the real me or not but I genuinely felt like I found it attractive and it was giving my so many groinal responses which then made me feel genuinely aroused like I wanted to do things. This plays on my mind because my ocd will always say “but you did/do find stuff like this attractive” but this literally stops me from eating, sleeping or anything. I can’t break from my compultions because what if I do genuinely find it attractive. I don’t think it’s even attractive maybe it’s cute? Like I find it cute… but cuteness can give people feelings down there I guess. I think because if my learning disabilities I found it hard to know the difference between “attraction” and cute so I did stuff over it because it gave me that feeling down there but that could of been cuteness feeling. I just need some support on this.
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