It feels like i wouldn’t mind having sex with a girl & that im not disgusted by it, but i don’t wanna feel that way / do anything like that Then i feel the opposite with guys😞 This is so confusing

I don't know for sure if I have HOCD, but it seems like I do, I tried to accept the idea that I'm gay, I felt calm, and then I started to get scared because I didn't feel anxiety anymore, I still feel attracted to my girlfriend, both physically and emotionally, but I feel an attraction to boys, sometimes I panic when I feel attracted and sometimes I don't (but most of the time I do) and I don't want to break up with my girlfriend I want to get back to normal

What is it about getting a groinal réaction, feeling like you are into it with the not-prefered gender and not getting any with you partner and prefered gender? As i am not fzeling anxiety it really confuses me like do i want to have a girl not a boy

SO-OCD is so confusing because deep down I know that I’m heterosexual, I was always attracted to men, wanted to be with men and had crushes on men. I know I’m not sexually or romantically attracted to women. The logical part of my mind knows that. But false attraction makes it so stressing because if that’s the truth than why am I feeling the exact opposite now? Does anyone else have a similar experience?