Yes yes yes. And the feelings that come with it (or lack of feelings). You’re not alone. Feels like my truth. But it’s all OCD
This is my life right now. My intrusive thoughts are so strong that even when they aren't there the anxiety still remains. I'm not sleeping or eating well at all, and it's like my body has turned my partner into a living trigger. We've been together for 4 years and I live with her, so it's extremely painful for me right now.
i understand how you feel