When your ocd tells you you’re unworthy of God’s love

Anyone else struggling with reading their bible or having a certain feeling to feel like God loves them and if they don’t it ruins their whole time with God. Makes pursuing him really hard. Any tips ?

Dealing with ocd since age 7 on and off it's all good until it gets spiritual but I'm like how can God forgive these thoughts that feel like they're coming from me? I was binging cookies and I already thought I'm going to finish these as soon as I pick up the cookie- God wouldn't like that. You know you're destroying His temple. And then a random thought. I'll do what I want. Worship how I want. Bruh what??????? Is this what He meant by Haughty spirit? And if i chalk it up to OCD will I be considered of flattering the Lord with my lips (denying it verbally that it's OCD) but in my heart there's malice? Is it dual mindededness any theologians here?

I feel like whenever I'm at church I'm not doing good enough or my praying isn't enough. I'm also disabled and half the time am unable to stand for long periods of time. My ocd keeps telling me that I'm not worshiping good enough because I'm sitting down or because I can't sing that hymn. It makes me feel so alone when I'm at church like god doesn't love me because I am not worshiping correctly.