Hello I am new to this app and I’m glad I’ve just come across it because I’ve really been needing a group of people that is understanding of OCD. I will have a psych Eval next month to get an official diagnosis but I have been working through harm OCD for the last four months. I didn’t truly understand what it was but through my general counseling and Google it’s clear. I have a fear that I’m going to harm my kids in some way and it’s debilitating. I have been afraid to be home alone it’s them and being really careful with watching my moods around them. I hardly ever chastise them and that was before I started having the intrusive thoughts. Does any one have any tips or anything to help me ease my anxiety as I wait to speak to a specialist?

Wow this is amazing I’m like near tears 🥺🥺. This has been such a lonely road I’ve cried for God to take me so I could stop feeling this terrible. Knowing that I wouldn’t want to miss life with my kids. I’ve lost so much weight from not feeling like eating because I’d be so upset from worry. Sometimes I can’t even look at them in their faces because I feel like they have a monster for a mother. I am trying to stay as positive as possible with meditation and prayer and journaling but some days it seems like it’s not enough.

@vscurry Oh man. I know how you feel. I'm a mom of 4. Sometimes in the midst of it I would catch myself looking at a pic of them smiling and I'd feel immediately anxious and have an intrusive thought about killing them. It was awful. I couldn't sleep. I made contengency plans of cutting my arms off (LOL). I mean it was baaaadddd. One day I was in so much dispair that I picked up the bible and opened it. I heard the word stop and looked down. It was the verse where it talks about the devil prowling around like a roaring lion seeking those to devour. But stand firm in faith knowing that your brothers and sisters around the world are going through similar trials. And after you've suffered a while you'll come out refined. I hit the floor and cried. OCD made me feel alone and that's a lie. You're NOT alone. It took what mattered most to me and twisted it all gross and gave it back to me. You need to open up to people no matter how afraid. The more you do the more you'll realize the people who are struggling right there with you. I promise this. God has put soooo many people in my path that have helped me and that I've helped. We are called to be the light of the world. Remember the bible tells us that God gives the birds places to sleep and dresses the field with lilies. And we are so much more than that to him!!! God calls us to come to Him with our needs. So I mentally picture myself throwing up this black blob of harm OCD and give it to Him and haha I say thanks for taking this! I've learned to pray using bible verses. So I tell Him when I pray, "Lord, you said that you did not create me with a spirit of fear. But you created me with a spirit of power, spirit of love and sound mind and self control." I also personalized bible verses. So in Isaiah it says, Fear not, so I would say "Fear not Kecia, for I am with you." Also psalm 91 is good for fear too. Lastly, I want to tell you God hears your cries. He sees you. Ive always prayed to ask Him to take this from me, but I'm switching my prayer up. I'm asking Him to equip me to face this and conquer it. I've found through that not only am I stronger, but He is using my story to help others. It's helped me grow in faith as well. Please trust me when I tell you that these thoughts are in no way a reflection of who you are as a person. You WILLLLLL have victory. I know this because I've lived it. I'm living it. Our journey is baby steps, but they are progress no matter how small. Keep the faith, have hope. Never be ashamed of talking about it. Erp will help you, just make sure you do it with a licensed counselor. It can be tough but if you stick with it, it's totally worth it! Praying for you Momma. You got this. You will get through this and in turn with strengthen another momma down the road going through the same thing. You're a warrior, a Christian the darkness will NOT overcome you. The battle has been won. Hugs and many prayers.

@kmecroz85 Thank you so much for these words of encouragement! It really means so much!

@vscurry No problem, anytime. Always have hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel

Thank you! I do a lot of these already but have not tried erp tools.