I really really need a theme switch at this point. My reading ocd is isolating me from people as I can’t seem to read their texts to me, much less respond 😪😪 I need this theme to go away

so i was on instagram and it came up with other signs of ocd then someone commented this doesn’t mean you have ocd now im stressed that its not ocd background - i had so-ocd for a few years then got treatment for it but am now on the waiting list for further treatment for other stuff but i dont have another theme which makes me feel like its not ocd my day to day life consists of touching the door handle every time you go past it or someone will die, and inability to send emails without re reading loads of times and getting other people to check because im scared i wrote something bad but the what if it’s not ocd thought is triggering me now and i don’t know what do

I have read many people use the word theme in their posts. I think I know what that means as far as OCD goes but could someone please confirm me??? Thanks!

Can anybody relate? I get so anxious to text people and reply, especially friends. I overthink everything I say wondering if they will think it’s funny or if it’s the right reply and when I send it I keep thinking that I said something evil or unfunny so I keep rechecking the text to make sure it’s ok. It’s so frustrating because all I want to do is talk to my friends but I get so anxious about texting them thinking something evil will happen so I just barely text them💔 if anyone has any advice to help with this please let me know 🙏