I need so much help. I’m really spiralling and feeling so anxious and scared. I’m not sure how to sum this all up briefly but basically, my partner and I split up 2 months ago and are in the process of maintaining a friendship. It’s obviously been really difficult but important to both of us. I’ve always had extreme fears about lots of different themes, but the biggest one was always him cheating on me. I would absolutely interrogate him over the tiniest things and analyze EVERYTHING he did or said. I would have intrusive thoughts all the time and it was a constant mess of me asking for reassurance and never being sure whether something was intuition or anxiety. I know he’s done some questionable things over the 4 years of our relationship but has never actually cheated on me (as far as I know- and trust me when I say I’ve asked him a LOT). He has always maintained that he’s been honest with everything, even if it was shitty or it took awhile to get to the truth. Anyway, last week, I found out he did lie about something (while we were broken up, not together). I had a strong, sick anxious feeling and I asked him about it and then a week later, realized he told a huge lie. I’m not even upset about the thing he did- just so upset that he lied to my face about it. When I confronted him, he said he was sorry and he only lied because he was scared of making me upset. But NOW, I’m spiralling out of control because the thing he lied about was literally something that sounded so crazy to me when the thought first popped into my head. I had tried to brush it off as anxious thought because it was so strange to me. I could have never guessed it so now finding out that I was right is making me think I have crazy strong intuition. It’s making me reanalyze and obsess over every single anxious “gut feeling” or thought from our four year relationship. I’m driving myself absolutely crazy. My biggest fear is that what if all my anxious/intrusive thoughts were true and he DID cheat on me at some point and just lied the entire time. Maybe I don’t even have ROCD- just a messed up relationship. I’m freaking out and this is all I’ve thought about for days. I can’t be friends with him if he lied to me for four years, but again I’ve asked him the same question so many times- I just don’t trust the answers. Please help