I feel so dysphoric today. I feel like all my maladaptive daydreaming and other struggles in my past were all due to me being trans and living a lie. I thought I loved being a girl but now I hate it so much, I'm so uncomfortable with it and can't understand how anyone isn't

Yes same, it's awful. I've always been such a proud female and now I've got this intense hatred and discomfort wjth all forms of feminity, and I've also lost all of my attraction to women. Good to know I'm not alone though, although I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy

I wish there was a way we could direct message on this app, I really want to befriend people who understand me but I don't like the idea of sharing social media and phone numbers on here 😕

@Kaylaaaa Yeah I understand. It is very debilitating. But one thing I can say is that with this disorder you kind of just have to let it say what it wants . The more you try to get rid of it the more stronger it will get . It’s kind of like a bully on the playground. I know it’s easier said than done especially because it feels so damn real . But I guess that’s what makes it ocd because if it didn’t feel real it wouldn’t be so distressing

@anonymousN True! It just gets to me because I always hear that tOCD isn't about discomfort with your gender it's just the uncertainty and... I've got a lot of discomfort now. I'm sure you understand. Thanks for responding 💜💜💜

@Kaylaaaa Absolutely, and I don’t think you’re really experiencing discomfort I think it’s just the doubt that’s making you feel that way . Are you in therapy?

@anonymousN Starting Monday! I've literally hit a point where I freak out if I see a woman in underwear or something because I feel like I'd hate to have curves like them, even though it's all I wanted before

@Kaylaaaa For me it’s the opposite it freaks me out when I see male body parts or beards because I can’t see how men are comfortable like that and I get scared of me not having boobs anymore . I can’t wrap my head what would make someone want to do that

@anonymousN Sounds like you have OCD and I'm trans, I'm convinced at this point

@Kaylaaaa I honestly don’t think you are . And I am pretty convinced too but ocd is convincing. I know you can’t see it but I can . Not trying to give you reassurance but just keep in mind that that’s what ocd does . Makes you doubt everything you know about yourself and it slowly tries to erase your sense of identity

I can’t confirm or deny this but all I can say is try to stay true to who you are . It’s hard to see clearly rn and I know it’s scary . It’s scary for me too I feel the exact same way you do . You don’t have to do what ocd tells you you can fight this it just takes time 💙 I wish you the best I will be preying for you . I know it’s hard but I’m here and so is the rest of the community

@anonymousN Thank you, I needed to hear that. I've calmed down now, but I can't shake the feeling that if I were cis I wouldn't get dysphoric like that, I wouldn't have moments where I think of myself as male. I want to want to be a girl again. It hurts so much