You know, I don’t know if my HOCD is the same as it was when it first started. It seems more “well what if that makes me gay” as opposed to “what if I am gay.” Obviously I still don’t want to be gay. Is that even HOCD anymore? Or is that internalized homophobia?

Username: Nour04

Date posted: 656d ago

dude my ocd used to be SO severe at first but now it's not anymore which makes me feel like i am just in denial and not actually struggling with ocd especially because i feel like i like it

Username: OCDumb >:(

Date posted: 656d ago

Honestly

Username: Ocd.sucks.

Date posted: 656d ago

That’s exactly where I’m at right now! It’s horrible because it scares me that I can accept the thoughts so easily now which I guess would be a good thing but I’m seeing it as a bad thing

Username: Nour04

Date posted: 656d ago

@Jmo exactly how i'm feeling. and i keep telling myself that i don't have ocd because "someone with real ocd wouldn't be able to move on from the thoughts so easily"

Username: Ocd.sucks.

Date posted: 654d ago

@Nour04 Yes, I’ve found myself questioning my ocd and I tell myself a psychiatrist wouldn’t have diagnosed me if I didn’t. Or sometimes if I don’t feel uncomfortable with a thought my brain automatically goes “oh my god you’re happy with that thought!”