You know, I don’t know if my HOCD is the same as it was when it first started. It seems more “well what if that makes me gay” as opposed to “what if I am gay.” Obviously I still don’t want to be gay. Is that even HOCD anymore? Or is that internalized homophobia?

Honestly

That’s exactly where I’m at right now! It’s horrible because it scares me that I can accept the thoughts so easily now which I guess would be a good thing but I’m seeing it as a bad thing

@Jmo exactly how i'm feeling. and i keep telling myself that i don't have ocd because "someone with real ocd wouldn't be able to move on from the thoughts so easily"

@Nour04 Yes, I’ve found myself questioning my ocd and I tell myself a psychiatrist wouldn’t have diagnosed me if I didn’t. Or sometimes if I don’t feel uncomfortable with a thought my brain automatically goes “oh my god you’re happy with that thought!”