I hate waking up and first thing I feel is it being real already 😭 like what if I really am attracted to children but literally before I was so disgusted by it and would cry and now it feels like I it or like it’s okay but it’s not like I just don’t like the feeling that I possibly could and this feeling makes no sense but ugh it’s always “what if I really am though” hate it.

POCD

Thomas Jamotte

Date posted: 4y

Yes, long term exposure to your intrusive thoughts will eventually desensitize them. It takes a lot of work. But above all, work on acceptance. That's it. You have ocd. Agree with the thoughts as if your agreeing with a bully just so that he leaves you alone, you don't have to like. Eventually you just won't care anymore and your ocd will likely switch themes. And than you do it all over with that new theme until no thought can disturb your peace if mind. Your ocd will always be there but you don't have to put up with it.

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Date posted: 4y

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katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

And I hate the scenarios that I keep making up in my head rn 😭😭 like what if I want to look at a child in some way or if their changing or something liek what If I look and I just fucking hate it :( and i wasn’t even thinking abt this at all but when I had something bad happened to me all these kind of thoughts started appearing like the content changed and now that I have no anxiety and I’m used to the other intrusive thoughts I had these came in stronger 😭🥲

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain I’ll try even tho I feel like it could be me? Like I’m stuck in that thinking yk like it’s sticky thought I can’t rationalize 😭 bc it tells me otherwise If I try to yk?

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Yeah I did that yesterday and it felt empowering for like a good while til I went to sleep and then woke up so it’s a practice thing 😭 and also so if I’m not having any anxiety anymore does that mean the thoughts feel more real and true for me? Bc that’s how I’m feeling rn like since I’ve been dealing with this for awhile now

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain It’s good to know that someone was going thru the same things I am :,) I don’t feel so alone makes me Feel a bit better even tho rn my ocd is like “no he doesn’t understand you’re going thru something completely different” 🥲 but yeah glad the anxiety is gone tho! And did you learn this erp or yourself?

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Thank you 🥺🤍 and that some dedication i would need someone to guide me through but since I feel so afraid still I’ll probably try this do myself 🙂😭 and are feelings and sensations down there normal? Bc I also have a lil bit of anxiety come out sometimes with groinals 😅😭

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Thank you so much 😭 man

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Are you a Pisces bro 😭 you’re so helpful and sweet

katr :,)

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain No problem! :) and thanks again 🥺

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