I’ve been dealing with so ocd for 3-4 years, and I had a best friend I loved so much, she was super important to me, I always spent time with her, we always saw each other. She gave me a lot of attention, she always cared about me, etc. The problem is that I remember that when I was her best friend I was already dealing with this confusion, so I remember that being with her felt “different” than all my other female best friends. Like, many times I tried to avoid physical contact, or words of affirmation or things like that because I was feeling weird and afraid that something will happen. Then, we stopped being best friends because she just walked away and I remember I was devastated. I really wanted her to come back, I cried a lot and I missed her a lot. But, I feel like I’m sure that I liked her or that I wanted to be with her and I’m so scared because I think that it’s true and I don’t know what to do. Sometimes many things remember me of her, or like some memories from the past, or like I wanted to caught her attention, etc., and this really triggers me. I feel like I’m in denial and I don’t want to accept that I like/d her and that I need to tell her this. Has anyone happened or it’s happening to something similar? :( I’m scared