Before hocd, I was kinda homophobic and now after hocd, I'm like it's okay to be gay. BUT IM NOT GAY ! What has happened to me

So am I turning gay. Please I dont want to😭

@raj123 Not being homophobic doesn't mean you're gay. It just means you're becoming more accepting that LGBTQ is okay.

I don't know any people who are gay so I dont know much about lgbtq. But my mind is constantly telling me that it's okay to be gay. WHYYY😭. IM 15 And I always wanted to be with women of my age and older. I used to fantasize about women everytime😭

@raj123 Same here. When I was a child, I would fantasize about having a boyfriend. Now, with HOCD, I try to imagine myself with a boy and my brain replaces it with the same gender instead.

@CharleneP I'm scared I no longer enjoy fantasizing about women. Neither do I enjoy fantasizing about men

@raj123 Have you gone for a psychiatric consultation?

@CharleneP No, I'm just 15. I dont have any financial help😭. On anxiety days I'm like I need a therapist asap. On non anxiety days, I'm like I'm recovering, why do I need a therapist.

@raj123 If it's impairing your day to day activities, it's best to have a therapists specialised in treating OCD.

@CharleneP Even I want to. I'm a student and I'm studying. Hocd doesnt lete concentrate. But I cant help it. I dont have any source which can help me financially

@CharleneP I thought I was the only one, unfortunately I think its making sense for me bc I never had a gf or romantic feelings for a girl( Maybe I did and I just cant remember) but I never had any female friends. Would you want to talk about this somewhere else?

Exactly the same!