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Learning to not be homophobic is a great thing!
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So am I turning gay. Please I dont want toš
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@raj123 Not being homophobic doesn't mean you're gay. It just means you're becoming more accepting that LGBTQ is okay.
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I'm the complete opposite. Before HOCD, I'm totally okay with people from the LGBTQ community and support them. But after this, I feel like I've become homophobic and I feel so bad.
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I don't know any people who are gay so I dont know much about lgbtq. But my mind is constantly telling me that it's okay to be gay. WHYYYš. IM 15 And I always wanted to be with women of my age and older. I used to fantasize about women everytimeš
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@raj123 Same here. When I was a child, I would fantasize about having a boyfriend. Now, with HOCD, I try to imagine myself with a boy and my brain replaces it with the same gender instead.
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@CharleneP I'm scared I no longer enjoy fantasizing about women. Neither do I enjoy fantasizing about men
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@raj123 Have you gone for a psychiatric consultation?
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@CharleneP No, I'm just 15. I dont have any financial helpš. On anxiety days I'm like I need a therapist asap. On non anxiety days, I'm like I'm recovering, why do I need a therapist.
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@raj123 If it's impairing your day to day activities, it's best to have a therapists specialised in treating OCD.
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@CharleneP Even I want to. I'm a student and I'm studying. Hocd doesnt lete concentrate. But I cant help it. I dont have any source which can help me financially
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@CharleneP I thought I was the only one, unfortunately I think its making sense for me bc I never had a gf or romantic feelings for a girl( Maybe I did and I just cant remember) but I never had any female friends. Would you want to talk about this somewhere else?
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Exactly, Now that I understand that its ok if you like same sex but now it feels like why choose girls when you can also like guys? Its messed up my head
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Exactly the same!
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Just because you think it's okay to be gay doesn't mean you're gay. Like I think its okay to be trans doesn't mean that I am trans
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now theyāre just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself itās two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself itās alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if itās just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but itās confusing. On top of that Iāve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like Iād be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk Iāve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that Iām straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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So Iāve talked to a couple of gay people and they all told me the same thing. They ALWAYS knew they liked guys and they have ever gotten aroused by a woman in their life. In fact they told me that they always found a womanās body disgusting. Looking back in my life Iāve been attracted to girls for as long as I can remember even before puberty. All my fantasies were about girls and I canāt remember a time where I felt the same for a guy (because it never happened). At the end I can still get aroused by women and you can clearly see how much stupid this obsession about being gay is. Gay people canāt get instinctively aroused by a woman and like it. Groinal responses and sensations donāt mean anything because they simply do not bring joy or a feeling of desire. Instead they bring panic. I once got a groinal when ātesting my reactionsā and I was sitting there crying like my life is over. Thatās not how genuine attraction works and no one has woken up one day feeling different and no one has been secretly gay and never noticed it and spent his whole life into women instead.
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Like I canāt think straight. This is making me doubt everything Iāve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I donāt. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go āoh so you like it you must be gayā or the other one where Iām not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that Iāve had my whole life and my mind goes āsee now youāre not into them youāre gayā like itās so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or āa thing of the pastā. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and itās so weird. Today Iāve spent my whole day thinking about it like Iāve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just wonāt let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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