raj123
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- 4y
girlanongirlanon
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4y
Learning to not be homophobic is a great thing!
raj123raj123
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- 4y
So am I turning gay. Please I dont want toš
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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@raj123 Not being homophobic doesn't mean you're gay. It just means you're becoming more accepting that LGBTQ is okay.
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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- 4y
I'm the complete opposite. Before HOCD, I'm totally okay with people from the LGBTQ community and support them. But after this, I feel like I've become homophobic and I feel so bad.
raj123raj123
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- 4y
I don't know any people who are gay so I dont know much about lgbtq. But my mind is constantly telling me that it's okay to be gay. WHYYYš. IM 15 And I always wanted to be with women of my age and older. I used to fantasize about women everytimeš
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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- 4y
@raj123 Same here. When I was a child, I would fantasize about having a boyfriend. Now, with HOCD, I try to imagine myself with a boy and my brain replaces it with the same gender instead.
raj123raj123
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- 4y
@CharleneP I'm scared I no longer enjoy fantasizing about women. Neither do I enjoy fantasizing about men
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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- 4y
@raj123 Have you gone for a psychiatric consultation?
raj123raj123
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- 4y
@CharleneP No, I'm just 15. I dont have any financial helpš. On anxiety days I'm like I need a therapist asap. On non anxiety days, I'm like I'm recovering, why do I need a therapist.
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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- 4y
@raj123 If it's impairing your day to day activities, it's best to have a therapists specialised in treating OCD.
raj123raj123
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- 4y
@CharleneP Even I want to. I'm a student and I'm studying. Hocd doesnt lete concentrate. But I cant help it. I dont have any source which can help me financially
Imaan7Imaan7
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@CharleneP I thought I was the only one, unfortunately I think its making sense for me bc I never had a gf or romantic feelings for a girl( Maybe I did and I just cant remember) but I never had any female friends. Would you want to talk about this somewhere else?
Imaan7Imaan7
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Exactly, Now that I understand that its ok if you like same sex but now it feels like why choose girls when you can also like guys? Its messed up my head
raj123raj123
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- 4y
Exactly the same!
InABubbleInABubble
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- 4y
Just because you think it's okay to be gay doesn't mean you're gay. Like I think its okay to be trans doesn't mean that I am trans
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- 24w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
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- 21w
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- 17w
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