I'm worried ive abused my dogs. They sometimes sit on my lap and sometimes id get a groinal response. It makes me sick even thinking about hurting my dogs or abusing them. I also had to check my dogs private area since I thought I saw a flea and I feel so gross for doing that. I was just worried something was wrong since I saw a black bit on his skin. I also scratch my dogs backside a lot since he likes me doing it for some reason? I didn't think anything of it but now I'm really worried I had some hidden intentions or wanted to hurt them. I also had intrusive thoughts about animals and got a groinal response I'm really worried what that means it was really disturbing and I dont know why my brain even came up with that.

"Pure" OCD

ARTnotOCD

Date posted: 3y

It sounds like your OCD is attacking where you’re most vulnerable by attacking whom you love. For that, I send you comfort and urge you to keep fighting those thoughts that stick doubt in your mind. You know you care for your dogs responsibly. Your dogs know it too. If fighting your OCD for yourself doesn’t feel like a good enough reason for all the trouble, despite the fact that YOU ARE WORTH IT, try fighting it for your dogs’ sake. By that, I don’t mean to rethink everything you already do, as your OCD is trying to get you to do. I mean, fight it, so you can still be a kind, loving, and responsible dog owner/pawrent/etc. You are so not alone with this. If it helps, I would totally let you play or snuggle with my dog.

InABubble

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much. Its just really difficult what to believe sometimes and my ocd constantly tells me I'm a bad person and that I'll hurt someone so I really appreciate it

ARTnotOCD

Date posted: 3y

@Kittiess Of course! OCD attacks where we care the most. Reminding each other to fight it and helping support each other without triggering the reassurance cycle, is why we’re all here! There’s a bunch of us here who love our fur babies, and hence, there’s a bunch of us here whose OCD has attacked how we think we are with them. You are so not alone! 💪🏼💜

ARTnotOCD

Date posted: 3y

Trigger Warning: kinda gross; dog penis; ticks— I thought there was a tick on my dog’s penis, but like towards the inside of the outer part of his penis. In order to check, I had to get really close and personal. Plus ticks already just make me feel so violated. And ticks on private parts are just — ugh!!! It turned out to be something else. I don’t even remember; maybe dirt, or a piece of vegetation, or even just a gross glob or dried pee! So gross! But we check even those places because as unpleasant as that can be, especially with OCD turning it into kindling with which to burn us, we do it to keep our pets safe! I also have a friend who did have to remove ticks from two of his dogs; both at different times, had been bit on the penis! So it definitely is important to check even places that seem so private to us humans!

InABubble

Date posted: 3y

Yeah I felt really gross having to check but I was worried he had something wrong so I had to check just in case but I felt so gross doing it like I violated him or abused him

garebear423

Date posted: 22w

Tw: beastility, sexual assault

I'm worried that I sexual assulted or r*ped my dog when I was 17 and I'm 18 now. This memory, has came up multiple and changes rapidly, it says that I was also saying very disturbing things to the dog, calling her good and weird disgusting things like that. I don't know if I can live with myself if this is true.

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 16w

Can’t get past this

I posted about this a couple days ago, about a dog chewing a ball while laying in my lap and it was giving me a physical sensation down there that technically felt good because it was right there. I keep replaying the moment in my head as a compulsion and trying to figure it out and I won’t stop until it feels right. I feel like I would know 100% if I indulged in it and let it feel good so I shouldn’t even be questioning if I did do that bc idk if I did. I remember looking down at the dog and realizing that everytime he bit the ball and moved his forward is when it would feel good for me. And while I was noticing that, I can’t help but think back, was that me just recognizing or allowing it to happen or both??? What does that say about me if I allowed myself to indulge in the feeling.

sanshine

Date posted: 15w

Brain is frazzled adults only please

Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.

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