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I feel like this too sometimes. And the fact my boyfriend has stuck through it with me I'm so grateful for! My rocd tells me I don't want to be with him and so I should break up with him. But then when I get through a bad phase, i get so upset thinking that I should end things as he deserves someone better. But you see, he doesn't give up. Because he knows I am working on it and that it isn't "me" if that makes sense. Your rocd is just that. He possibly stays with you for a number of reasons, but it's worth remembering that rocd is not who you are. It's hard I know, but he's probably sticking around for the real you and you definitely deserve that!!
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thank you that’s so nice to hear. i hope u can keep that in ur mind as well when things get tough :))
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I spoke to my mum about this too. She said she will never stop loving me or caring for me. I feel I have put them through a lot, but your parents will be more concerned over your welfare than anything else. I don't want to reassure, and I suggest sitting with the thought. Acknowledging you'll possibly never know for sure what they think. I definitely encourage you to see a therapist, who might be able to help with this for example EPT. I hope this helps!
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I feel like this but with my mum and dad, I feel like they deserve a better daughter, one who won’t stress them out as much over irrational things..
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Hey guys, I’m reaching out in a pretty weak spot of desperation. I feel so insane and so sick of my mind recently, I’m completely drained from my mind. I’ve had such bad spikes of RCOD in my relationship of 1.5 years , which kills me because I truly want nothing more than to just be his peace and for us to work out. I love him more than anything and I would do anything for him. I feel like the pressure I placed on making sure I was “perfect” was so counter productive becuase instead I find myself doing everything wrong. I tell myself not to think of the wrong thing, then I think of the wrong thing, then I feel so guilty, and it plagues my mind for days. I feel so guilty it makes me feel detached and like I’m a bad girlfriend. I feel so bad for always burdening him with my anxieties and my “wrong thoughts” becuase he doesn’t deserve it, he’s so amazing. Recently, I began overthinking if I “love him” which I KNOW is so silly because when I’m calm, I laugh that I even got so worried , but when my anxiety creeps in, it feels so debilitating. I spiral and then try to prove to myself that I do love him , which then makes things in that moment feel “forced” because I’m acting out of intent to win the battle in my head. My RCOD has been a persistent issue, but this particular theme is pretty new and I hate it. I feel like I’ve been placing pressure on myself to overly appreciate him and it’s so counterproductive. I feel so bad because I told him about everything and he now thinks I don’t love him. Which is so wrong. I just want this to be fixed. Sometimes I feel like he’d be better off with a girl that isn’t such a headache and wouldn’t drain him all of the time but at the same time , I could never accept him being with anyone but me. Also, I have seen a psychoglist but it just didn’t feel right and I hated vocalising my thoughts because I felt it gave them more power - it feels like the only person I can truly be raw with about this stuff is my bestfriend. If anyone has any tips , PLEASE help me.
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