Pocd thoughts. Sometimes I have thoughts of "it's OK if youre a p" or "it's fine if you do bad things to children". And then I'm like... Wth is wrong with me?? Am I the only one?? I don't know if it's my head trying to give me a rest or trying to cope with it... I just... Hate these thoughts!! I don't want to think like this!! Am I alone in this? ;-; I feel so disgusting... I have a gf and I want to be happy with her and these thoughts usually follow that. Or if I'm trying to ruminate... God...

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

Im having weird scary pocd thoughts and i really hate them, i feel like theyre my own thoughts and im freaking out

I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that