I was watching a movie yesterday with family, Jumanji the 2017 ver and that part where the girl is seducing the guys made me have a groinal but it felt like I liked it but I just sat with it bc what else could I do. And today I had a dream where I was saying to myself I like girls and just accept it and I didnt wake up feeling anxious, wth happened it's like I dont care anymore and it's making me think im in denial, and sometimes I do that to check how I react and I just don't like it

Sexual Orientation OCD

i feel that way too. and like i feel like "myself" again but that self is bi and i don't like it and it makes me feel like i am really bi in denial. i literally feel bi in denial yet i am unable to panic and ruminate :(

Sometimes it feels like I "have" to like them, I hate it