I will bounce between OCD’s. Right now it’s sexual orientation for some reason. Has previous Porn watching made this extremely hard for anyone else? My entire life I’ve been attracted to men. I’ve had a million crushes on boys, and several boyfriends. I’ve never been attracted to women or had the thought of being with one. I watched Porn at a younger age and on and off in my young adult life. I was always turned on by the women (groin responses) and I never understood why. I always felt like I could just relate to them more rather than wanting to be with them. Of course I’m still completely attracted to men and will subconsciously check out Men in public, but my thoughts of how I react to women in Porn make me question myself. Does anyone ruminate over the thought “What if you’re lying to yourself?” “What if you really aren’t attracted to men?” I would love to hear similar experiences and your ways of getting through it.

depressoespresso

262d ago

I am so shook I literally have the EXACT same story as you. It’s hard out here 😫

SomethingSugary

262d ago

Seriously so hard 😩 I read something in an ERP article for SO-OCD, that people are sexually attracted to sexual things. Just because there’s a response doesn’t mean that’s a hidden desire. I hope you’re able to work through it too! 💕

RememberWhoYouAre.

262d ago

I relate with you except that im a man, same thing except porn didn't cause me ocd but i DO KNOW porn is actually very harmful. There's a ton of people shedding light on porn usuage. That might help

SomethingSugary

262d ago

Thank you. I stopped watching it a long time ago because it just caused me to react negatively. But the memories are haunting!

Acrasia

262d ago

I can relate to what you said but now whenever I’d say that I’ve never been attracted to women to want to be with them- it feels like I’m lying to myself now and an image of a girl would pop making it feel like it’s “different” 😩 Now I ruminate that the previous relationships I had with men were all forced and lies.