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Yes! And I think that’s a big part in the healing process. Youve been so stressed and anxious for who knows how long! You can’t just snap back to normalcy. Give it time. And searching for those feelings still will keep you stuck
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Thank you both.. I really needed to hear that badly. I love my partner a lot and I know the feelings are still there.
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@Mandy7710 Of course, usually when this stuff hits it’s because you found someone special... that’s something that’s kept me hopeful for days <:]
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I understand the feelin! It’s a really strange numbness but honestly when I see other people who feel the same way it reminds me that it isn’t a reflection of who I truly am if that makes sense? rOCD and OCD makes things feel real but my suggestion is to keep loving your partner if they want to bring out the best in you!
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You’re not alone with these thoughts! I know it’s hard as I’ve experienced and still experience the same but it’s comforting to know we’re not alone
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It really does mean a lot to me that people care. I know I can be a very stubborn person (according to my friend) I tend to get triggered badly from certain things which cause me to ignore things. I know my partner and I have some things we need to work on but I never wanted to break up. He said he felt useless bc he doesn’t drive. He doesn’t like the idea of driving due to his own fears and anxiety. I told him how I felt about it. He knows I get worried about it. But he does things to make up for it though. He cooks dinners and helps out with other things. We haven’t had sex in 3 months now which is weird for us. But the last time we did have sex I felt no connection and it made me wanna avoid it. I’ve been struggling for over a year now so I can see why my brain wants to flat line.
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My partner constantly asks me if I am okay…. I am not okay.. I don’t feel okay… I just wanna cry… I just want my relationship back to normal again. 😭 I know I love him. But why did my ROCD and I still feel disconnected!?!
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If I have a choice then why isn’t things back to normal!? Does this mean I truly don’t want him anymore…. I don’t wanna be with someone else…. I want to love him only. 😢 I know he has flaws but I know I do too….
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I wanted to know… how do you deal with some relationship issues with ROCD? My friend said the word break up and it triggered me. I started to get light headed badly.
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It’s not easy. But for me idk if this is a compulsion but I just remind myself that I’ve felt this anxiety and obsessiveness about other themes, I also have SOOCD, and it kinda calms me in a way. I try to remember how I felt before the anxiety kicked in
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@Kdrizzy What’s SOOCD?
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@Mandy7710 It’s sexual orientation ocd
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I am worried that I convinced myself I am not in love or that I love him…
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For the past like 4 months, my ROCD has been getting worse and worse. I’ve been on lexapro for about 1.5 months now and it’s basically gotten rid of my anxiety and intrusive thoughts. But now I’m stuck with the constant feeling of not loving my bf. At this point I can’t even recognize him as someone I love. Like I will stare at him and try to feel something or recognize him but I feel nothing. It feels like I don’t love him anymore, but I don’t want to give up. I don’t know what to do at this point. I don’t know if it’s still the ocd and the medication is making it worse or if I’m truly just falling out of love with him. While not being on the verge of a panic attack and ruminating 24/7 is great, i feel like I’ve lost my identity and my emotions.
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Lately, I’ve been feeling so disconnected from my boyfriend, and I don’t understand why. When I look at him, it feels like I’m looking at a stranger, and my mind keeps telling me that I don’t like him, that I never really loved him, or that I was just attached and comfortable. It feels real, and that terrifies me. I know logically that ROCD makes me overanalyze every little feeling, but it doesn’t make this any easier. I keep waiting to feel something—love, excitement, even relief—but instead, I just feel numb and distant. When we talk, I feel weird. When he kisses me, I don’t feel much. I keep thinking, ‘If I really loved him, wouldn’t I feel something?’ And the fact that I don’t just fuels my anxiety even more. It scares me that I can’t remember how I felt before ROCD took over. I look at old pictures, and my brain tells me, ‘That wasn’t real, you were just excited to have a relationship.’ And because I can’t access those feelings right now, it makes me doubt everything even more. I also feel guilty because my boyfriend is so loving and patient, but I feel like I’m hurting him. He tells me he doesn’t feel loved by me anymore, and I hate that I can’t just snap out of this and be the way I was before. It’s exhausting. I don’t know what’s real anymore. I keep checking how I feel every second, and it just makes me feel worse. I know that’s a compulsion, but it’s so hard to stop. I keep searching for certainty, but no answer satisfies me. Even when I try to accept the uncertainty, my mind screams, ‘But what if you don’t love him? What if you’re just lying to yourself?’ I want to be present with him. I want to feel love naturally again. But I don’t know how to get there, and it’s terrifying.”
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Right now I feel like I’ve realized something awful. Like maybe… I never truly loved my boyfriend. Maybe in the beginning I was just excited to be in a relationship. Maybe I confused that excitement with real love. And when the intrusive thoughts started, maybe it wasn’t ROCD — maybe it was the truth hitting me. I write this and it feels real. That’s the scariest part. It feels calm and clear and like maybe I’ve just been lying to myself all along, holding on because I “should,” not because I truly want to. I can’t remember how it felt to love him — and that makes it worse. I feel so disconnected, so numb, like nothing makes sense anymore. Every time I try to feel something for him, it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m playing a role, not being myself. But the thing is… I’m not at peace. If this was really the truth, why does it hurt so much? Why does this “realization” come with panic, guilt, emptiness, and so much fear? I don’t want to hurt him. I don’t want to lose him. But I also don’t want to keep living like this — doubting myself, my feelings, and my past. I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle I can’t break, and I’m scared I’ll always feel this way. Has anyone ever felt like this before?
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