My partner constantly asks me if I am okay…. I am not okay.. I don’t feel okay… I just wanna cry… I just want my relationship back to normal again. 😭 I know I love him. But why did my ROCD and I still feel disconnected!?!
If I have a choice then why isn’t things back to normal!? Does this mean I truly don’t want him anymore…. I don’t wanna be with someone else…. I want to love him only. 😢 I know he has flaws but I know I do too….
I understand the feelin! It’s a really strange numbness but honestly when I see other people who feel the same way it reminds me that it isn’t a reflection of who I truly am if that makes sense? rOCD and OCD makes things feel real but my suggestion is to keep loving your partner if they want to bring out the best in you!
Yes! And I think that’s a big part in the healing process. Youve been so stressed and anxious for who knows how long! You can’t just snap back to normalcy. Give it time. And searching for those feelings still will keep you stuck
Thank you both.. I really needed to hear that badly. I love my partner a lot and I know the feelings are still there.
@Mandy7710 Of course, usually when this stuff hits it’s because you found someone special... that’s something that’s kept me hopeful for days <:]
You’re not alone with these thoughts! I know it’s hard as I’ve experienced and still experience the same but it’s comforting to know we’re not alone
It really does mean a lot to me that people care. I know I can be a very stubborn person (according to my friend) I tend to get triggered badly from certain things which cause me to ignore things. I know my partner and I have some things we need to work on but I never wanted to break up. He said he felt useless bc he doesn’t drive. He doesn’t like the idea of driving due to his own fears and anxiety. I told him how I felt about it. He knows I get worried about it. But he does things to make up for it though. He cooks dinners and helps out with other things. We haven’t had sex in 3 months now which is weird for us. But the last time we did have sex I felt no connection and it made me wanna avoid it. I’ve been struggling for over a year now so I can see why my brain wants to flat line.
I wanted to know… how do you deal with some relationship issues with ROCD? My friend said the word break up and it triggered me. I started to get light headed badly.
It’s not easy. But for me idk if this is a compulsion but I just remind myself that I’ve felt this anxiety and obsessiveness about other themes, I also have SOOCD, and it kinda calms me in a way. I try to remember how I felt before the anxiety kicked in
@Kdrizzy What’s SOOCD?
@Mandy7710 It’s sexual orientation ocd
I am worried that I convinced myself I am not in love or that I love him…